Vicky - The end?

Vicky and I met up on MSN again on Thursday evening - Valentine's day - for a chat. She had received the rose I sent her and was thrilled. Her personal message on MSN had been changed to "Yippee, Valentine's Day is here.". Something in what I was writing to her though, piqued her curiosity and she asked me what was wrong. I am so transparent.

I said it was complicated; too complicated to chat about on MSN. So she called. I told her about Susie and my feelings for her, and as I suspected, Vicky started crying. I felt horrible (not for the first time). I simply hate hurting people, and I seem to keep doing it.

At least she didn't start swearing and calling me names like Becky did (I never did describe our break-up did I? I will have to post about that some time).

The next day, I checked emails to find one from her. It was a long one, filled with questions. What did I feel for her? Was Susie still on the scene? What was I offering her in relationship terms? Could I commit in the future? etc etc.

It took me nearly an hour, but I composed an equally lengthy reply . Basically, I said that I would be happy to have a casual relationship with her, because I could not (yet) commit to a long-term relationship with her. I was not, however, completely honest. I said that, if Susie were to go back to her ex, I would have to try to forget her and move on, and then we could see how far our relationship could develop. In truth, I see no long-term future for us. We are too different. The truth is that the sex is fantastic, and for now, that's enough for me.