Of dildos and threesomes

Yesterday Susie and I had lunch together at Bluewater. Over pannini and tea, I told her about V and about Sue, and she told me about her sister's relationship problems. Then we walked around and did a little shopping. Flicking through a free magazine, we looked longingly at an article on romantic getaways. Looking solely at the photographs of the destinations, Susie picked her favourites in order. Amazingly, they coincided almost perfectly with mine. For a moment, I allowed myself to dream of walking hand in hand with her along a sandy beach at sunset, and my heart soared. I desperately wanted to hug her.

We left the shop, and strolled around and talked of other things. Things of a more sexual nature. She mentioned buying some new toys since she has been single, and when pressed she told me about her favourite - the little beauty pictured above.

She had already bought tickets to see St Trinians, but as we were still a little early, we stopped off for a drink, and the conversation continued along a sexual theme. She revealed some intensely personal details, including how long it has been since she has had sex, and that she has been enjoying a lot of 'solo action'. I was so turned on, and worried that I was putting her off. I was relieved when she reached out to hold my hand. At that point, I could almost have cried. As I told her, there is a fair-sized gap between friends and lovers, and I am not sure where we are within that gap. Are we more friends than boyfriend and girlfriend? Where lies the boundary of what behaviour is acceptable without 'crossing the line'? She had no answer. I think we are going to have to sort that out over time.

The film was hilarious. We laughed a lot and thoroughly enjoyed it. Equally enjoyable for me was that she linked her arm through mine or rested her hand on my arm throughout. When it was over, she stopped at the foot of the stairs, and, as the credits were rolling, she asked:
"So who did you fancy the most?"
For half a second I was shocked, then lost for words, and finally I scratched around for who had made the biggest impression on me. I couldn't remember the name of the character or the actress, but I described Celia, played by Juno Temple, who has a very low-key role but she is very attractive.

We walked towards the car park and separated with the briefest of kiss and a more intimate hug. Again, I didn't want to let her go. I had not even got out to the motorway before my phone rang. I looked down and saw Susie's picture.
"Hello!"
"Hi," she said. "I just wanted to say that for me, it's Kelly."

I laughed out loud, and drove home in a state of sheer bliss.