Invitations

Vicky and I chatted on MSN again last night. Curiously, although we both have each other's phone numbers, we have yet to hear each other's voices. The impact of technology, eh!

Considering the fact that we first got in contact only a few days ago, and we really don't know each other yet, our conversations are getting increasingly personal. We talked about wanting to meet up sooner rather than later (we are both desperate to meet in person), about public displays of affection, and about stroking and kissing. I invited her out to a lovely restaurant near me, but said the problem was it was too far to take her home again afterwards. She replied that it would have to wait until she could spend the night! Then, towards the end of our conversation, she said she would love it if I drove all the way to see her just to spend a day in her bed.

We shouldn't be this forward with each other yet, surely?!

I really hope that she does not turns out to be disappointing in the flesh. I think. I will be very disappointed if I don't like her or I'm not attracted to her. But on the other hand, I don't want to get too involved with someone when there's still a chance that Susie and I could get together.

Yesterday she sent me her private phone number and her home address. Out of the blue. For no other reason than that she was giving me another level of trust. She said. Why now, I wondered? Is this the precursor to an invitation? She recently said that she needs more time before we meet up again. But she also said that my meeting other women made her slightly jealous.

I told Vicky that, despite how fast this was going, we should just "go with the flow" and see how things went. It's almost inevitable that, in the next week or two we will end up naked together. I am looking forward to that, but I don't think I should tell Susie. I don't want to hurt her. But if that was true, I wouldn't be planning to sleep with someone else in the first place, would I? Oh God, I am such a mess!

And just to make matters even worse, someone I have been trying to go out with for months finally said she was 'less busy' now and could find time to meet me. I know I shouldn't have, but we have made a date for Tuesday.