Mel's in love with me

Mel contacted me on Sunday night to say she wants us to start seeing each other again. I was surprised to say the least, but I accepted her invitation to go to her place for a glass of wine and a chat.

I mentioned that I was seeing someone else, and I would need to decide whether to stop seeing Becky or to not see Mel again. She was not particularly happy with that, and admitted - for the first time ever - that she loved me and wanted us to be serious. She said that she wants us to get married one day. Whoa!!! Slow down! This is just like before - getting way too intense, way too quickly.

I had arranged to meet Becky on Monday evening to see a movie and go back to my place, so when the next day Mel asked if we could meet for a drink I suggested Tuesday. She accepted then said she wanted to make love to me and so forth. I suggested that she come round to my flat and she immediately accepted.

It occurred to me yesterday morning on the way to work that I have yet to spend a single night in my new flat on my own. Either Becky or Mel have been with me on every night I have spent there. Disgraceful!

We met near London Bridge, had a drink and something to eat, then caught the train back to my place. After giving her the (very) quick tour, we showered together, touching and feeling each others soapy bodies. She stroked my already hard cock, I stroked her already wet (and not with water) labia. We dried off and went to bed to make love like old times. It was good, but I realised that I no longer felt for her the way I once did.

Now, she is giving me an ultimatum - dump Becky or I walk away. So I told her that if forced to choose, it wouldn't be her. But I know she doesn't mean it. She is serious about loving me and does not want to walk away. She wants to see me tomorrow night and all this weekend, and it's getting too intense. I have asked her to back off and let me have some space and time.

I think I need it.

Mary and I spent well over an hour talking on the phone last night. I reiterated my feelings for her, and without making any rash promises, told her that I would like the opportunity to try again with a clean slate. To my utter disappointment she said that her feelings for Neil are growing, that she really loves him and wants to marry him. They have even set a tentative date. She is wearing a ring on her engagement finger.

It hurts. Right now, I would give up both Mel and Becky if she came back.