Exciting, yet scary.

This is so exciting, and yet so scary at the same time.

Before Mel and I met she had one other date with a guy named Steve. But she and I have just 'clicked'. Since that one meeting, we have constantly been in each other's thoughts. Sunday evening was spent texting each other and we spent all day Monday swapping emails, so I got very little done at work.

It is obvious to both of us that we are completely in lust, and cannot wait to get intimate. Despite spending a mere few hours in each others company :

• we have arranged for me to cook her dinner on Wednesday night
• we have arranged to go to a party on Saturday and spend the night in a hotel
• she has invited me to two more parties and a wedding reception between now and August
• we have talked about spending at least one day over the Easter weekend in each others company, with the kids.
• we speculated about moving in together and even buying property
• together!!
• she has repeatedly said things like "God I really want this to work xxxxx" and "For the 1st time in a long time I am happy. Thank you".
• she has told Steve that she doesn't want to see him again
• she has decided not to go on any more dates from the site.

I am hugely flattered, my ego is at it's highest point for years, and yet.... We don't really know each other yet. How can we after just a few hours? I desperately want to spend time with her, though. Relaxing quality time. But talk about moving in together is scary. I have only just left one relationship, and while I am comfortable with starting another, I am not yet ready for the commitment that Mel seems to expect.

I also have G to think about. I asked him over the weekend if he minded me dating other women. He said no, and seemed perfectly comfortable with the notion. To test that, I showed him a text msg from Mel saying simply "xxxx", and he just smiled. It was a genuine smile though. I think he understands; he's a cool kid.

What do I really want from this relationship? How far do I want to take
this, and how quickly?